Good Saturday morning, as most may know, I had a doctor appointment yesterday to receive the results from my brain scan. The results are in and the news is not good. They have found multiple spots on the base of my brain. We’ve known all along that this was a high possibility. How does this happen? Well, first know that the chemo does not penetrate the brain and therefore it’s always at risk. What now? We have stopped chemotherapy and will immediately go to radiation. They will do radiation directly to the base of my brain and spinal cord. I am reminded that radiation was an effective treatment when the cancer was in the lymph nodes in my chest and I believe that it will be effective here too.
I am grateful for Dede and Meghan as they sat with me to process all of the information with the doctor. We were given the facts and next steps but we do not have long-term plans or big picture from the doctor yet. Immediate next steps, they have started me on steroids to reduce the swelling that is causing the pressure on my brain that causes the numbness and spotty vision. I have an appointment with the radiation doctor on Monday to map the radiation treatment and will begin that immediately. I will see Dr. Kerr on Tuesday afternoon.
Yesterday I witnessed once again as friends and family interrupted their lives to circle around me to pray, serve and love me well. Friends stayed with me, my team (co-workers) circled with me in prayer, my parents set out to make their way to Dallas and John is with me, I could not ask for more.
Although it is not well with my circumstances it is well with my soul. I truly have peace that surpasses understanding. I do not fear this, I believe and trust God will deliver me through this. The miracle just got a little bigger. He is King of Kings and Lord of Lords He will not waste this. I stand on His word and promises. Hear when I say, I have seen too much not to.
Here’s my devotion from this very morning, how can I not believe Him?
TRUST ME IN EVERY DETAIL OF YOUR LIFE. Nothing is random in My kingdom. Everything that happens fits into a pattern for good, to those who love Me. Instead of trying to analyze the intricacies of the pattern, focus your energy on trusting Me and thanking Me at all times. Nothing is wasted when you walk close to Me. Even your mistakes and sins can be recycled into something good, through My transforming grace.
While you were still living in darkness, I began to shine the Light of My Presence into your sin-stained life. Finally, I lifted you up out of the mire into My marvelous Light. Having sacrificed My very Life for you, I can be trusted in every facet of your life.
Jesus Calling, Sarah Young
“But blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; its leaves are always green. It has not worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit.” — Jeremiah 17:7-8
“”And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” — Romans 8:28