I got to stay home alone today, I felt like such a big girl. You know the way you felt at as a kid when you were excited and nervous at the same time? That was me today. I was nervous that I wasn’t good enough to stay by myself but I did it. It turns out I’m still a big girl.
I was reminded today that no matter how old we get we’re never too old to learn something. As I reflected on this season, the whole month, I thought about choices. No matter how old we are or what our trials are we all have a choice. As a Christ-follower, I have the power to have victory over any trial. That doesn’t mean life won’t have trials or that I get to breeze right thru them. But it does mean that with Christ I have the power to walk thru them with confidence that I will stand in victory on the other side.
As I walk in this I’m learning to take time to reflect, rest when I need to and be attentive to the lessons to be learned. There will always be a chance to get upset and respond with negativity, frustration and anger. I still have those moments more often than I like to admit. However, I’m gaining ground to walk in victory of responding with grace, mercy and a positive attitude. I believe Christ is honored in our response and I choose to live like Christ and honor Him.
I had some moments of reality today as I saw my scar and deal with the feelings (or lack of) around my incision. I know that my body has undergone many changes and this is only the beginning. Even as hard as it is to see this, I was reminded that this is only temporary. My first response is sadness but I can’t stay there for long as I think about victory and there will come a day when all of this will be a mere memory. I walk thru each day and try to remember that it is one day closer to the finish line.
“Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you, who walk in the light of your presence, O Lord.” — Psalm 89:15