I woke up laughing this morning about a dream I had last night. I was going out on a date and all I wanted was to have dinner, a glass of wine and act like everything was normal. Really?!?!? It did make me laugh, seriously. Because I am nowhere near dating. I was, I did. It made me want to share with you where this blog title started and how I KNOW without a doubt God is active in the details of my life.
Some of you know that I went through a break-up of a serious relationship earlier this year. Through this year I have learned so much about my relationship with God, myself and life. It has been the worst and the best year of my life. I stand on this side of it excited about my relationship with God. Through this, God has healed and restored me. I came back and began dating again and was having fun. And then I met a really nice guy. We got to know each other a little and after our ‘first’ date, I heard the Lord say ‘No, I do not want you to date for now’. I did not understand but I knew He had spoken. Little did I know the Lord was speaking to him as well. And though we didn’t understand at the time, it would become clear. We have since communicated and both see God’s divine timing in all of it.
I have a total peace that as a 34, single female that God will use this in amazing ways. Chemo has many effects besides just dating for a 34 year old female. Trust me, we had many conversations that I didn’t think I would have over the past two weeks. Anything that could have been done to make provisions for future decisions were not an option. There just wasn’t enough time.
In summary, I’m a little relieved that I don’t have to worry about dating right now. I know without a doubt that God will use this. I pray that He protects and restores my body without complication. In the end, I think my future mate will hit the jackpot because I will be new and improved spiritually, emotionally and physically. We serve a mighty God and he does not waste a trial or hurt.
So that’s enough about that for now. I look forward to a weekend visit from my sweet friend, Nicole. Watch out, I may make her write this weekend just so you get a personal account if I’m really as good as I say I am. I promise I am but she may need to testify for me. I love ya’ll.
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neithr height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” — Romans 8:38-39