It’s been a very long day.
Things began much earlier than expected (seriously, can a girl sleep in a day or two?) at around 4 a.m. Unexpected, sharp pain has a way of interrupting even the deepest sleep. The doctors think it may have been cause by a bursting vein in or around the tumor. Since today is day 1 of “Jenn’s juice” this unexpected twist added a few more steps to the agenda before the cocktail party could begin. Concerned about possible blood clots, the doctors added a CAT scan into the mix. The tumor continues to grow … it’s now about 12 cm. We’re praying for an immediate response to chemo to reverse that growth and bring relief.
Throughout the day, everything took longer than expected. It’s difficult to balance a sense of urgency with waiting … maybe you can relate? Things got off to a late start with the echocardiogram which is basically an ultrasound of the heart. Jenn’s juice will pack a powerful punch and they want to keep a close eye on things, so this test establishes a baseline.
Next came cocktails. The port that was inserted on Wednesday hooks up to a series of IVs that include chemo as well as a full bag of anti-nausea medicine. The latter (a favorite) is long-lasting and stays in your system for five days. Chemo takes a while – several hours – to complete. Over the course of the treatment, Mom and Pam catered a special picnic lunch with tasty grilled cheese sandwiches. What could go better with Jenn’s juice? After our picnic but before cocktail hour was over, they came to do the CAT scan. Talk about medical multi-tasking! It may have been a timesaver but heading off for a CAT scan with an IV mid-cocktail was quite the adventure.
During the drive home some nausea hit. It’s hard to tell if it’s a reaction yet or just car sickness, which wouldn’t be unheard of. Exhaustion soon followed … a feeling of having been mowed down by a truck came to mind (did anyone get a license plate number?). The best way to continue to fight cancer tonight is with sleep, hopefully very deep and a LOT of it.
A friend offered these verses today – the timing was God’s:
Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions
never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself,
“The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.”
Such amazing reminders that as we pour out our hearts to the Lord, He hears every word with a heart of compassion that is renewed daily and never fails us. With God as our portion, we have all that we need and can trust that His timing is perfect … in all things.
NOTE: Jenn expressed how grateful she is for your heartfelt messages, encouragement, scripture and prayers. She’s resting, and I share this update with you on her behalf. Today was a significant hurdle in the battle, and God will have the victory! Nicole, for Jenn