I’ve had my first battle with anger today, not about what you probably think. First battle of anger, try not being angry at the first woman who calls on the phone to tell you they need $1347.oo for your surgery that is less than 24 hours away, or the second woman who calls. Both asking ‘will you be able to pay at the time of services’. Cancer is expensive however, I didn’t think I would be hit so quickly with numbers and dollar signs. Reality sets in, cancer has a cost and no matter how much you think you’re prepared it’s a shock when you find out how much. Thankfully, my Father owns the cattle on a thousand hills so I will not worry. He already has my trust fund in place and has paid every debt. I will be responsible with the resources He has given me and know that He will provide. His word tells me ‘Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.’ – Matt. 6:34 That’s the promise I stand on today.
I am busting at the seams to continue this post. You see, I wrote the first paragraph around 3:30 this afternoon after receiving 2 phones about the surgery and PET scan happening tomorrow. They both bombarded me with costs and what my 20% would be. Both want full payment at time of service. Excuse me people, did you miss the part about I’m trying to kick cancer in the butt and you want money before you’ll provide services? So I immediately began writing and our Father comforted my soul with His word. I have learned the value of hiding His word in my heart because in moments like these, He tugs on your heart and what’s on the inside spills out.
A co-worker immediately noticed my emotion, when I shared what had happened she felt my pain. I dried my damp cheeks, picked myself up and knew that these 2 phone calls had not surprised my Father and he gave me the exact words to write in the beginning of today’s post. He knew what He was about to do and knew that we all needed a reminder of who’s in control (even the financial costs).
I left work around 4 today, tired and ready to get home to begin the process of getting finances in line to see what I could do in the next few hours. But God already had it done, remember when he said, “It is finished”? Well, it is. I left my phone unaccessible on the drive home and listened to the music and made my way through the traffic. During my “unwind” trip home, I was driving my co-worker a little crazy by not answering her multiple phone calls. Because she was watching God use her to bless my socks off. And I mean it. I could never have imagined what she was about to tell me and I was speechless….really, I know some of you are having a hard time believing that one but its true, speechless!
You see, when she heard of my need she emailed a group of her friends and within minutes the responses were flooding in. By the time she and I spoke she had all but $350 ready to give. I hope you’re smiling and celebrating too. But don’t stop there because God’s not done yet, a friend has volunteered to start a fund in my name, and wait there’s still more….I just received a text, we’re up to $1670 and she says it’s still coming in. I’m so blown away and excited that I want to shout from the rooftops. My only problem, I truly cannot find adequate words to give enough praise to the Father. He is worthy of so much more than my mere words, I stand in awe!!! He IS my ALL in ALL!!!
Folks, WE have a Big God. To my friend Amanda, I can never express my gratitude to your faithful response when the Lord called you into action. This really is our battle and I truly feel the power of our army. Our Father, is the Commander in Chief and I’m honored to serve along side each and every one of you.
I just have one thing to say to cancer – THIS MEANS WAR!
‘Those who are with us are more than those who are with them’ – 2 Kings 6:16