Here We Go….

First let me say that I am overflowing with gratitude.  I did not anticipate that all of you would read my story.  I am so encouraged and it inspires me to keep going.  I will admit, there’s a little pressure to do a good job as not to disappoint anyone.  🙂

Today has been a good spirits day meaning I’ve been in good spirits, no not the drink kind.  We have officially started the process, a little less talk and a lot more action.  Started with a biopsy this morning.  Let me tell you that was an experience.  I did fall in love with a couple needles today, the ones that deliver the numbing “stuff”.  For the record, I really like those.  If I could order up a few of those throughout the day this wouldn’t be so bad.  There were 3 biopsies done.  The first was done in the lymphnode, the second was of the skin and the last was done in the mass.  I will confess I got nausous in between the first two procedures, mostly because I got too warm.  If you want to stop doctors in their tracks tell them you think you’re going to throw up and all of sudden they will do anything to prevent that from happening.  No seriously, they were awesome and kind.  I truly love my doctor and her staff, probably a good thing since she and I will be spending lots of time together.  Once she was able to finish her job without me interupting, she said she feels confident that she got good samples, she believes the skin is clear (that’s a very good thing), and she should have results by Monday.  To define what’s good and what’s not, the most important thing about my cancer is that it’s a mass (tumor) in the breast.  It does not appear to be inflammatory, that would be bad.  Mass seems to be contained versus inflammatory being all in the tissue and skin.  Let’s celebrate that for a moment, I got the right kind if you’ve gotta have it!

Once we were done with the biopsies, she gave me a reality check.  The oncologist has ordered the port.  A what?  When?  That’s right, we’re wasting no time.  He’s in the know and he’s taking charge.  I like a man who takes charge of the situation.  With that said, I breathed a little easier when she said next week, Wednesday to be exact.  Well, I haven’t met a port I didn’t like yet so come next week I’ll get the port and set sail.  Once we have the pathology report they’ll know what ingredients will be in Jenn’s Juice and we’ll start with cocktails.  Happy Hour will take on a whole new meaning.  Although I still prefer the old fashioned kind. 

Let’s not forget, I get to have a PET scan too.  Although, this one has been scheduled for Monday but of course we’re at the mercy of the insurance company’s coverage of the payment.  I’ll fight cancer all day long please don’t make me fight the insurance company.  There’s a prayer request if I’ve ever heard one, that the insurance company will pay. 

Today is a good day, I feel good, a little tired but good.  I realize how fortunate I am to be where I’m at for “such a time as this”.  I truly believe that this year has been what it has for God to prepare me for this journey.  Our relationship has been the sweetest and most intimate of my life.  He is faithful, comforting and the lover of my soul.  I could not ask for more.

Thank you for your continued prayers and support.  I love you all and promise that I could not do this without you.  God has woven our lives together for a reason and we will one day celebrate the outcome.

‘You have made known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand.”  – Psalm 16:11