Today had a rough start but has finished well. Last night was a good night of sleep but first thoughts when I awake are “was it a dream”? I’m quickly reminded that it’s not and the reality of pain makes it fresh every morning. The mornings are tough but after a few tears and some time with the Father I am reminded that I will praise Him whatever my lot. He is faithful and will deliver me. Either from it or through it, whatever He chooses I will praise Him in all my days. Good or bad He is with me and made provisions for all my days. He gave us a day at rest, at first glance I was unsettled that we didn’t have an appointment or place to be. My thoughts were we should be doing something, come on people let’s get this party started and get “It” out of me. But I have come to realize that the Lord provided today just as it should be. A day of rest, a day of leisure, a day topped off with a little shopping for a few necessities. The day has finished well complete with laughter.
The doctor has identified this as a fast growing mass that is being well “fed” with a strong blood supply. The reality of those words are every day there are changes. Those changes are causing some discomfort and I realize that there are some other things happening too.
Friday is a big day, biopsy first up at 9:00 followed up with a little round of blood work. We will have to wait until Monday for the PET scan. At which time I should have results and discuss a plan of action. It has the makings to be a long weekend. God again has provided as we have complimentary tickets for a Beth Moore taping Friday and Saturday. I’m guessing God has something to tell us and who better to deliver the message than His very own Beth Moore. We’re excited and welcome the break from thoughts of cancer even for just a few brief moments.
Thank you to all who are following my story. It is encouraging to read each and every one of your comments. Please know that though I don’t reply, I read each of them throughout the day and have been great encouragement for me and those around. Know that some of them have been read in public and we welcome your encouragement and laughs. I love you all and you mean the world to me. I can’t wait to celebrate on the other side of this.
“The Lord our God is with me, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in me, he will quiet me with his love, he will rejoice over me with singing.” – Zephaniah 3:17