Less than 24 hours ago the conversation with my girlfriends was about the latest boy and the most recent date. Today the conversation took a drastic turn when the doctor said it’s cancer. Cancer?!?! How can that be? The lump only appeared a month ago. How does it happen that fast? Really? Now what? How long do I have to process this? “Well, we’ve scheduled you an appointment with the breast surgeon tomorrow”. And so I immediately enlisted my girlfriends to pray. It has amazed me how our conversations have changed, itineraries were dismissed and our lives have been interrupted. Conversations about boys have now turned to boobs. To keep or not to keep? Not really a question I’m pondering because I am confident that my identity is not in them. I’m still me with or without them.
How do I feel? Physically – the same I did yesterday. Emotionally – a little numb, a little worried about who’s going to be upset because they found thru social network and not a personal call. To you, I apologize. I hope you forgive me.
What are my thoughts? Not sure yet.
What next? I’ll know more after Wednesdays appointment.
What I do know….my mom and friend arrive in the morning to be with me, friends showed up on my doorstep tonight with dinner and a shoulder to lean on. I am blessed to have friends and family that have allowed their life to be interrupted to be with me. Our Lord has provided and is caring for me beyond my imagination.
So for all of you willing to follow me on this journey stay tuned as I plan to journal thru this.
Cancer has picked the wrong chick!!!